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Friday, 29 March 2013

and again i'm stuck

^^exactly^^

Sunday, 07 October 2012

I love you means that I ACCEPT you for the person that you are, 
and that I don't wish to change you into someone else. 
It means that I don't expect perfection from you, 
just as you don't expect it from me. 
It means that I'll love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. 
It means loving you when you're in a BAD MOOD or too tired to do the things I want to do. 
It means loving you when you're down, 
not just when you're fun to be with. 
I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and don't judge you for them, 
asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. 
It means that I care enough to FIGHT for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. 
It means thinking of you, 
dreaming of you, 
wanting and needing you constantly, 
hoping that you feel the same way for me

.At the end of every war, 
the warriors come home, 
hoping what they've seen and done wont' stay with them forever. 
Buddha once said, 
"It's better to conquer yourself than to win one thousand battles." 
But other soldiers just can't give up the fight and go underground to plan the next war. 
But it's the true warrior who knows that wars don't end, 
they simply change and there can never be peace as long as guns are still loaded and there is plenty of ammunition. 
These weapons may be deadly.

It's not supposed to be perfect, 
and no one is supposed to understand it. 
It's meant to be chaotic, 
and it's meant to make you cringe. 
If you haven't cried in a while, 
or felt like crap in even longer, 
then you're most likely doing something wrong. 
This isn't here for constant perfection, 
or some cliche happy ending. 
It's here to be real, 
and to keep your heart beating, 
and to keep you wanting more. 
There is supposed to be a bright light of hope in your heart, 
and a black hole of the unknown in your mind. 
None of this makes sense, 
but it's all worth it.

love (love,people)

Just because I laugh a lot, 
doesn't mean my life is easy. 
Just because I have a smile on my face everyday, 
doesn't mean something isn't bothering me. 
I choose not to dwell on the negatives, 
keep my head up, 
and move on with my life.

"In the course of your education you have always been taught to look for the right answer but you 
must also know that in life sometimes the right answer is that there isn't one." 
- Boy Meets World

^ somebody please buy me this^

The human body is made up of systems that keep it alive. 
The one that keeps you  breathing, the one that keeps you standing, 
the one that makes you hungry, and  the one that makes you happy. 
They're all connected, take a piece out and  everything else falls apart. 
And it's only when our support systems look like they might fail us 
that you realize how much we depended on them all along.   
 - Grey's Anatomy

Saturday, 06 October 2012

I never thought I could make it without you, I never though I'd be ok alone.

Did I say something stupid? There goes one more mistake. Do I bore you with my problems? Is that why you turn away? Do you know how hard I tried to become what you want me to be? Take me. This is all that I've got. This is all that I'm not, all that I'll ever be. I've got flaws, I've got faults. Keep searching for your perfect heart. It doesn't matter who you are, we all have our scars.
I love unmade beds. I love when people are drunk and crying and cannot be anything but honest in that moment. I love the way people look when they first wake up and they’ve forgotten their surroundings. I love the gasp people take when their favourite character dies. I fall in love with people and their honest moments all the time. I fall in love with their breakdowns and their smeared make-up and their daydreams. Honesty is just too beautiful to ever put into words.
Please be a traveler, not a tourist. Try new things, meet new people, and look beyond whats right in front of you. Those are the keys to understanding this amazing world we live in.
Maybe that's the lesson for me today, to hold on to these simple moments. Appreciate them a little more; there's not many of them left. I don't ever want that for you. Finding things that make you happy shouldn't be so hard. I know you'll face pain, suffering, hard choices, but you can't let the weight of it choke the joy out of your life. No matter what, you have to find the things that love you. Run to them. There's an old saying, 'That what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger' I don't believe that. I think the things that try to kill you make you angry and sad. Strength comes from the good things - your family, your friends, and the satisfaction of hard work. Those are the things that'll keep you whole. Those are the things to hold on to when you're broken.
-Sons of Anarchy
When you do bad things, people call you a rebel. They say you have problems. Have you ever thought that some do things for the sheer thrill and enjoyment of doing these things?
The best songs don't bring you back to the day you first heard them but the day they started to mean something to you.
"You'll find another."
"God! Banish the thought. Why don't you tell me that 'if the girl had been worth having she'd have waited for you'?
"No, sir, the girl really worth having won't wait for anybody."
-This Side of Paradise by F. Scott Fitzgerald
"When I was playing Mystique in X-Men, I remember thinking, 'If I'm going to be naked in paint in front of the entire world, I'm going to look like a woman. I'm going to have curves and have boobs and have a butt.' Because girls are going to look at that, and if I look like a scarecrow, they are going to think, 'Oh, that's normal'. It's not normal. I'm just so sick of these young girls with diets. I remember when I was 13 and it was cool to pretend to have an eating disorder because there were rumors that Lindsay Lohan and Nicole Richie were anorexic. I thought it was crazy. I went home and told my mom, 'Nobody's eating bread--I just had to finish everyone's burgers'. I think it's really important for girls to have people to look up to and feel good about themselves."
-Jennifer Lawrence
When in doubt, make a fool of yourself. There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth. So what the hell, leap.
We laughed when people said we wouldn’t want to leave, but we cried when they told us we had to go.
Don’t you realize what you are to me, and what you’re always going to be? Everyone else is going to be second best. There’ll never be another you.
"It’s well and fine to flirt with disaster, as long as you just remember not to fall into bed with it."
Let’s slow dance and be the couple everyone wishes they could be; let’s look at the stars and kiss all night long; let’s take stupid pictures and laugh until we can’t breathe. Let’s be forever, you and me.”
I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them that no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and you saw them crying in their bed at night or singing to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street and even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think after seeing them at their most vulnerable you wouldn’t be able to help falling in love with them.
When you're wounded by love disinfect it with alcohol to prevent complications and infection. Alcohol has a numbing effect that will decrease pain. That's why most people result to drinking when broken.Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had. No one waits forever.

Saturday, 01 September 2012

Blah Blah Blah

Wednesday, 15 August 2012

First you take a drink

First you take a drink, then the drink takes a drink, then the drink takes you.

they think they know who i am. but i don't even know who i am.